I will make no mistakes in the name of loneliness. I have my work and an uncomplicated life. I don't want to feel anything about love again. A broken heart is the only damage for which there is no insurance. However, it's ironic that I love the word "relationship". It covers all manner of sins, doesn't it?

 

I LOVE CATS ALSO VERY SWEET JOURNAL;)

A broken heart’s feelings by loosing true love may take few years' recovering, it's so strong, sorrow and deeply hurt, unable to see and know her a bit anymore. Felt like drug addicts, her smiles kept flashing in my brain for every minute, when I was lying in bed alone. Feelings like thirsty for water; feelings like trying to let my soul fly out to her, so I could be next to her without any sign.

Just wanted to hear her voice, or merely a 5 second looking at her faces, and to know whether she is happy or sad. Struggled all day in my own bed, talked to pillows, touched them and felt her soft skins. I had deadly alive like a foul. A foul for years. And wished she would forgive me, and came to my arms again. That’s impossible, but I dare not believing any fact.

The happy ending would only be a wicked dream, I just repeated and repeated thinking about her until I felt as sleep alone in darkness, but didn't know taken how long. This kept on for years and years, but her innocent smiles and caring soft words would never be faded until my feelings was gone with the wind without a sign. What I had left is my memory I had ever had such strong feeling of love, I would never catch it again in life.